Blab,Anxiety,Withdrawal

03.29.2004 at 1:21 p.m.

ok, im gonna blaba bit.

im sick over the Bullshit going on in DC but you all know enough that I dont have to spell it out. It just sucks.

Im not feeling so great today. I think i'm having withdrawal from the vicodins ive been taking for the past few months due to my re-occurring injuries and pain from my 9-11 expereince. It really stinks;I have the shakes and am hot/cold and going through and emotional roller coaster of despair, gloom and doom and fear and tiredness. I dont like it.

I dont like that i am feeling in "critical financial" shape. I just can't push myself to swallow my pride enough and be a little fish in a little pond when i have always been the big fish with security and stability.

I am scared, i hate talking like this cuz I dont like to upset my wife or make her nervous, but truth is...I'm nervous..

Anyway....think good thoughts for me..

NeO

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